Posted on Wednesday, June 26, 2013 with 31,114 notes
Tagged:   #omg   #this is great   #personal

It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven’t left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. Ha ha, funny. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are.

A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn’t transition well to adult life, that you’d fall right through the cracks. And look at you now. La di da, it’s happening.

Your mother, your father, your grandparents: they all look at you like you’re some prized jewel and they tell you over and over again just how lucky you are to be young and have your whole life ahead of you. “Getting old ain’t for sissies,” your father tells you wearily.

You wish they’d stop saying these things to you because all it does is fill you with guilt and panic. All it does is remind you of how much you’re not taking advantage of your youth.

You want to kiss all kinds of different people, you want to wake up in a stranger’s bed maybe once or twice just to see if it feels good to feel nothing, you want to have a group of friends that feels like a tribe, a bonafide family. You want to go from one place to the next constantly and have your weekends feel like one long epic day. You want to dance to stupid music in your stupid room and have a nice job that doesn’t get in the way of living your life too much. You want to be less scared, less anxious, and more willing. Because if you’re closed off now, you can only imagine what you’ll be like later.

Every day you vow to change some aspect of your life and every day you fail. At this point, you’re starting to question your own power as a human being. As of right now, your fears have you beat. They’re the ones that are holding your twenties hostage.

Stop thinking that everyone is having more sex than you, that everyone has more friends than you, that everyone out is having more fun than you. Not because it’s not true (it might be!) but because that kind of thinking leaves you frozen. You’ve already spent enough time feeling like you’re stuck, like you’re watching your life fall through you like a fast dissolve and you’re unable to hold on to anything.

I don’t know if you ever get better. I don’t know if a person can just wake up one day and decide to be an active participant in their life. I’d like to think so. I’d like to think that people get better each and every day but that’s not really true. People get worse and it’s their stories that end up getting forgotten because we can’t stand an unhappy ending. The sick have to get better. Our normalcy depends upon it.

You have to value yourself. You have to want great things for your life. This sort of shit doesn’t happen overnight but it can and will happen if you want it.

Do you want it bad enough? Does the fear of being filled with regret in your thirties trump your fear of living today?

We shall see.

Posted on Saturday, June 22, 2013 with 139,683 notes
Tagged:   #inspirational   #***   #me   #personal   #omg   #i love this
Posted on Monday, May 27, 2013 with 331 notes
Tagged:   #improv   #me   #personal   #inspirational
Posted on Monday, May 27, 2013 with 7,310 notes
Tagged:   #THIS   #IS   #PERFECT   #I   #LOVE   #YOU   #BEAUTIFUL   #SHOW   #OMG   #AD   #SPOILERS   #***   #PERSONAL

all my habits indicate i clearly do not want to succeed in life. i literally am up at 2:20 am and have to wake up at 7 a.m. for class. so basically i’m asking to fall asleep in class and fail at life

Posted on Sunday, May 19, 2013 with 7,217 notes
Tagged:   #END OF AN ERA   #SNLFINALE   #PERFECTION   #***   #*   #I LOVE THIS   #ALWAYS   #STEFON   #STEFON I LOVE YOU   #DONT GO   #BILL HADER   #SETH MEYERS   #WEEKEND UPDATE   #!!!!!!!!!   #PERSONAL

Well, SNL Fandom, it’s been a great season. See you in September! 

Posted on Sunday, May 19, 2013 with 1 note
Tagged:   #snl   #personal   #OKAY WHEN IS IT SEASON 39   #HELLO   #IM WAITING
Posted on Friday, May 17, 2013 with 32,010 notes
Tagged:   #personal   #me   #tofinale   #lemon out   #stop
Posted on Monday, May 13, 2013 with 168 notes
Tagged:   #snl   #THE BEST   #UGH   #I WAS THERE   #HELP   #PERSONAL

Notes from the SNL Live Show

~Chris Kelly wrote the elegnance sketch.
~Colin Jost wrote the blood sketch and Target Lady.
~Mike O’Brien wrote the restaurant scene sketch
~Lorne took Kristen’s hands before goodnights and told her a few words.
~Aidy and Kristen talked before Target Lady. Kristen came up to her,and started to tell her something and she looked totally flushed and happy.
~The cold open was was written by James Downey.
~They cut Jay Pharaoh’s beat in cold open without him knowing. Jay and Jenna, the stage manager, were both confused.
~Nasim always mouths her lines seconds before air. She was going through cue cards before her part in the cold open.
~Chris Kelly and Sarah Schneider wrote the flowers mothers day sketch.
~ Cecily and Bobby wrote the Moms a Ghost sketch.
~Paul Feig and Paul Rudd were both in the audience. A page said Tina Fey was there too, but not in the audience.
~Before Lawrence Welk, Lorne came over to talk to Fred. They were smiling and laughing.
~Maya and Fred had a moment during goodnights where they were holding each others shoulders and just smiling and laughing.
~Beautiful standing ovation for Kristen Wiig as she was walking from home base after good nights. She stopped, put her hands over her mouth, paused, then walked back to home base and started crying as she looked out at the audience. It was beautiful.

Posted on Sunday, May 12, 2013 with 15 notes
Tagged:   #personal   #text   #snl   #sam goes to snl   #thoughts   #ahhhhh   #still never getting over that
Posted on Sunday, May 12, 2013 with 1,311 notes
Tagged:   #!!!!!!!!!!   #NO WORDS   #No words at all   #Personal   #kristen wiig
Posted on Saturday, May 11, 2013 with 1,813 notes
Tagged:   #Me   #About tonight   #I cant   #Personal
Posted on Saturday, May 11, 2013 with 13 notes
Tagged:   #Personal   #Pray for me tomight
Posted on Friday, April 19, 2013 with 936 notes
Tagged:   #***   #snl   #personal   #me   #melissa nccarthy   #melissa mccarthy